<p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: "PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> 把苦苦經(jīng)營(yíng)了三年的衣店轉(zhuǎn)給小靜那天，我重重舒了一口氣，慶幸的告訴自己終于自由了。</span></h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: "PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> 空余時(shí)間終于有了，拿起電話告訴遠(yuǎn)在深圳的母親，過幾天去深圳看她。這個(gè)承諾我承諾了三年。</span></h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: "PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> 放下電話，我哭了，開始懷疑自己是不是真的自由了，迷茫開始浸噬著我身上每個(gè)有感知的細(xì)胞。舍去了這一份僅有的經(jīng)濟(jì)來源，突然發(fā)現(xiàn)這所謂的自由真的更難。</span></h3> <p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: ".PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">握著的筆，端著的相機(jī)，寫寫拍拍的夢(mèng)懸在空中總感覺無比的遙遠(yuǎn)。暗自神傷地給母親發(fā)去一條短信告訴她手頭上還有一些事處理，一時(shí)半會(huì)去不了。</span></h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: ".PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> 有時(shí)間了，我卻推脫了去看母親。</span></h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: ".PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;"> 有很長(zhǎng)一段時(shí)間我都是在迷茫中消磨著時(shí)間，直到工作室開始組建時(shí)，我再給母親打電話告訴她我去深圳的具體時(shí)間。</span></h3> <p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: ".PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> 我選擇了母親生日的那天去深圳。</span></h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"><font face=".PingFangSC-Semibold"> </font></span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">母親開門看到我時(shí)，特別開心，嘴笑成了花，花白的頭發(fā)扎著馬尾，扎在一起還不及我小指頭粗，原來什么也不長(zhǎng)的臉上堆滿了重重疊疊的皺紋，浮腫的眼睛顯得格外無神，臃腫的身上穿著一件淺橙色的短袖，還是</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">2012</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">年母親來我家時(shí)我給她買的那件。母親真的老了，是那么快，快到一瞬之間。心緊的有些窒息。</span></h3><h3> <span style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">母親接過我手中的行李說：</span><span style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">“</span><span style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">一天沒吃東西吧？餓了吧，趕緊洗個(gè)手吃飯。</span><span style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">”</span></h3><h3> <span style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">放下行李，母親跑進(jìn)廚房和著鍋碗的聲音叨叨著：</span><span style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">“</span><span style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">燜了你喜歡吃的飯，有米湯的，還燉了蓮藕馬蹄湯，還有蒜苗炒的臘肉，只是這臘肉沒屋里的臘肉味，你將就點(diǎn)，在深圳沒條件自己烘臘肉</span><span style="color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">......”</span><br></h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: ".SF UI Display"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3> <h3></h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: "PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> 我坐在餐桌前，聽著廚房里母親的聲音，不爭(zhēng)氣的眼淚就掉出來了。母親患有嚴(yán)重的神經(jīng)分裂癥，活在一半清醒一半瘋的世界里，日子對(duì)于她來說是一種煎熬，對(duì)于活在她身邊的人來說也是一種煎熬。許多時(shí)候母親都是特別孤獨(dú)的，顯得格外的可憐又可嫌，沒人跟她說話沒人跟她玩，只因她不是一個(gè)十分正常的人，在老家她呆不住，罵人無數(shù)，多半人都見她躲的遠(yuǎn)遠(yuǎn)的避之不見，被罵過的人除了對(duì)她討厭之外還有恨，甚至想她死。</span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">我為母親哭過，爭(zhēng)辯過，也對(duì)母親抱怨過。我心痛她，也埋怨她。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">她好強(qiáng)倔犟，始終不承認(rèn)自己有病，死活不肯進(jìn)醫(yī)院，不肯聽任何人的談心，也聽不進(jìn)任何人的話，拒絕吃藥，甚至恨那些說她是神經(jīng)病的人，我們對(duì)她沒辦法，無奈之下，母親隨弟弟妹妹住在深圳。偶爾也會(huì)回老家過一個(gè)春節(jié)。偶爾會(huì)來我家住一段時(shí)間。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3> <h3></h3><h3></h3><h3></h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: "PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> 母親端著飯菜上來，我趕緊擦干眼淚，接過母親手上的飯邊吃邊試探的口氣問：</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">“</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">媽媽！今年春節(jié)，你回老家過年不？</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">”</span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">母親愣了一下頭又象征性的晃了晃長(zhǎng)嘆一口氣說：</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">不回，就在深圳。</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">”</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">母親又有點(diǎn)間歇性的開始叨嘮無關(guān)此時(shí)的事情起來。頭時(shí)不時(shí)的左晃右擺，腳不停的在地上輕輕跺。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">算了，不回就不回，明年來我家過年。</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">”</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">我夾了一塊臘肉放在母親碗里說道。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">明年有空一定去你家過年，小周昨天打電話也跟我說了。</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">”</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">母親反過神來嘿嘿地笑了，用手搓了一下自己的衣服。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">店里生意還好吧？奶奶身體還好吧？小周現(xiàn)在在做什么？</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">”</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">都好著呢！</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">”</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">我那胖外孫還是那么調(diào)皮搗蛋？那小家伙特別懂事，總是外婆前外婆后的叫我，我經(jīng)常關(guān)注你的朋友圈，看到小家伙心里就高興。</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">”</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">母親說著就開始手舞足蹈地學(xué)起小王子的一些經(jīng)典動(dòng)作起來，時(shí)不時(shí)哈哈地笑出聲來。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">只有看著母親的這一刻，我的心才是踏實(shí)的。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3> <p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: "PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> 一直堵在嘴里的想對(duì)她說生日快樂的話，我始終沒有說出來。我怕說出來，母親會(huì)傷感，怕她又叨嘮一些不著邊際的話。</span></h3> <h3></h3><h3></h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: "PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> “</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">我聽亮亮說，你把店轉(zhuǎn)出去了，是真的嗎？我怎么沒聽你說過呢，你現(xiàn)在干什么了？</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">”</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">母親突然安靜下來給我夾了一塊魚問道。</span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: ".SF UI Display"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">我淡淡地故作輕松的說：</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">”</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">寫東西呀，拍東西呢，我有自己的工作室了。</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">”</span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: ".SF UI Display"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">母親有些著急：</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">“</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">寫東西，拍東西能賺錢嗎？你負(fù)擔(dān)那么重，上有老下有小的，小周又沒個(gè)正事可做，你都快四十的人了，做事還是這么沖動(dòng)任性不切實(shí)際，你一定是遇到困難了，要不不會(huì)總說來深圳又沒來，如果不是我生日，估計(jì)今年你又來不了我這。</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">”</span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">母親放下筷子去里屋拿出一個(gè)紅色的小手包，坐在我身邊將包里零零散散一大疊錢遞給我說：</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">這里有一萬二仟塊錢，你拿著應(yīng)下急，我也只有這么多，都是平時(shí)你們逢年過節(jié)給我的，再加上我平時(shí)撿點(diǎn)垃圾幾塊幾塊攢的，你拿去應(yīng)個(gè)急。</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">母親將錢塞到我手里，眼圏紅紅的說：</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">媽媽就是一個(gè)罪人，害的你們幾姊妹日子都不好過，我也不情愿，但我又沒辦法，我就是這一口氣總斷不了，總是有人要害我</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">......”</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: ".SF UI Display"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">面對(duì)母親這一長(zhǎng)串的叨念，我不知道怎么跟母親說，母親這一生確實(shí)過的不如意，原本苦盡甘來的后半輩子可以舒坦一些，卻患上了這病，硬生生將自己過得生不如死。</span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">她時(shí)常是清醒的什么都清楚，與正常人一點(diǎn)區(qū)別都沒有，卻總有那么點(diǎn)神經(jīng)質(zhì)，喜歡叨嘮，嘴里總是罵過不停，不分場(chǎng)合與時(shí)間，可以從早罵到凌晨五六點(diǎn)，不知疲倦，見到不喜歡的人就罵，就會(huì)有怪動(dòng)作。弄的家不得安寧。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">因此，母親少不了挨父親的打，父親一打母親，我就恨他，可母親一罵起來，我也會(huì)抱怨母親，也會(huì)對(duì)母親大聲說話，叫她安靜。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">母親愛錢，所以我們給她的錢她都會(huì)接著不作拒絕，還會(huì)責(zé)怪誰誰沒給過她錢，她時(shí)常偷偷趁弟弟不注意去撿垃圾，所有的錢她都沒有動(dòng)過，全部攢起來。她說將來那天她動(dòng)不了了，得要用錢。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">我將母親的錢塞給她說我不缺錢，我在賺錢了。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: ".SF UI Display"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">母親問我工作室具體做什么事？我說就是與文化有關(guān)的，母親就一臉問號(hào)，表示聽不懂，我說就是做文化傳媒的，母親似懂非懂地說你覺得行就行，喜歡就行，但家要顧到，孩子老人要照顧好，要學(xué)會(huì)攢錢。</span></h3> <h3></h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: ".PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> 母親生日那天，我陪母親逛商場(chǎng)，總想給她買身新衣服，在我認(rèn)為適合母親穿的衣服我都叫母親去試試。母親也不拒絕，都試，試時(shí)母親總是在鏡子前轉(zhuǎn)前轉(zhuǎn)后，最后問她喜歡嗎？喜歡我就買單了，母親就趕緊跑到換衣間把衣服脫下來特別靦腆的笑著說不喜歡，不適合她，拉著我就往門外走。</span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">在試一件綠色長(zhǎng)款雙面羊絨大衣時(shí)，母親在鏡子前照了很久，看的出她特別喜歡，我覺得母親穿著也特別好看，只是有點(diǎn)小，緊緊地箍在身上了，便問服務(wù)員有大的嗎？服務(wù)員說最大三個(gè)加的，店里沒有，要去其他店調(diào)貨，我說那就幫我調(diào)一件，母親忙說不用了，這衣服她穿太小了不舒服，我說有大的，調(diào)貨就行了，母親說這已經(jīng)是加加大了，估計(jì)調(diào)來也穿不了，服務(wù)員趕緊說大一個(gè)碼您絕對(duì)穿的了。母親不聽硬把我拉出來了。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">后來在床上與母親睡覺時(shí)我想起母親喜歡的那件衣服，忙問：“媽媽！那衣服你是不是喜歡？”</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“喜歡是喜歡，你曉得不，那一件衣服多少錢？”</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“多少錢？”</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">3999</span><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">！嚇?biāo)牢伊??！蹦赣H嘖嘖地直搖頭。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“喜歡就買唄！一輩子也沒多長(zhǎng)時(shí)間，再不穿就沒機(jī)會(huì)了。”我故作輕松的說。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“不買！你現(xiàn)在這么困難，那里都需要錢用，還讓你花這么多錢給我買一件衣服，又當(dāng)不了飯吃，這不是讓我折壽呀！”</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">母親在被子里抖了一下。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">我抱著母親泣不成聲。</span></h3> <h3></h3><h3></h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: ".PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: ".PingFangSC-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> 離開深圳那天，母親幫我把所有東西收拾好送我到樓下，提著我大大的行李箱喘著粗氣不停叮囑我，要這樣那樣的。我心情特別不好，下樓時(shí)，被自己的裙子絆了一下，差點(diǎn)從臺(tái)階上摔下去，身后的母親丟下行李箱趕緊抓住了我笑著說：</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">“</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">七孔八竊，沒事吧？</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;">”</span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">我故作瀟灑地跳了一個(gè)臺(tái)階，回頭沖母親笑笑，沒事。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: ".SF UI Display"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">坐上車，我的眼淚撲簌簌流了下來，這聲乳名，觸到了我心底最柔軟的地方。自從我參加工作，自從她病后就連名帶姓叫我了。</span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">從高鐵站回來的路上，母親給我發(fā)了一條微信消息：霞，在你放電腦的那個(gè)手提袋里，我放了一本存折，里面有一萬四仟塊，這些錢你先拿去用，密碼就是你出生年月日，我昨天去銀行把錢存了，你總是像個(gè)馬大哈，丟三落四的，給你現(xiàn)金怕你丟了，也怕路上被人偷，所以就存銀行了。</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">”</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">拿著嶄新的存折，我愧疚的無地自容。母親有手機(jī)，也有微信，我卻很少與母親聯(lián)系溝通。甚至前段時(shí)間我特別沮喪的時(shí)候，我把母親微信屏蔽了，是不讓她看我朋友圏，不想讓她擔(dān)心我，在很長(zhǎng)一段時(shí)間里我都忘了我的好友里還有母親的名字，而母親的微信除了頭像是她，我也找不到她任何有關(guān)她的信息。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">當(dāng)母親用另一個(gè)微信號(hào)加我時(shí)說她看不見我朋友圈了，說以前那微信號(hào)不能用了，因?yàn)榭床灰娢业呐笥讶α耍跃徒械艿苤匦陆o她申請(qǐng)了一個(gè)新微信號(hào)。母親說她經(jīng)常喜歡翻看我們幾姊妹的朋友圈，但她不點(diǎn)贊，只看，不是特別有事，她也從不給我們發(fā)微信。她說不想打攪我們。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3> <p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: "PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> 前段時(shí)間，網(wǎng)上有一個(gè)關(guān)于《朋友圈要不要屏蔽父母》的話題，討論很激烈。</span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">文中說，據(jù)微信統(tǒng)計(jì)，</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">2017</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">除夕當(dāng)天發(fā)出的</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">2900</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">萬張自拍中，幾乎沒有年輕人和父母的合影，在</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">18----29</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">歲的年齡段中，有</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">52%</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">的用戶把父母屏蔽到了</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">圈外</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">”</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">對(duì)于大多已經(jīng)成年的孩子來說，不讓父母關(guān)注自己的生活，有各種各樣的理由。比如，不希望父母看到自己的壓力、煩惱等負(fù)面情緒，怕他們擔(dān)心，也有人是怕父母干涉自己。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">于是，很多父母因?yàn)闊o法和孩子正常溝通，就是靠著看你朋友圈的點(diǎn)點(diǎn)滴滴，去了解你。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">突然發(fā)現(xiàn)我們與父母離的久了遠(yuǎn)了，日子過著過著就過成了父母的圈外</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">“</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">客</span><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Bold"; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">”</span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3> <h3></h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: "PingFang SC"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> 龍應(yīng)臺(tái)在《親愛的安德烈》中寫道：所謂父母，就是不斷對(duì)著你的背影，既欣喜又悲傷，想追回?fù)肀в植桓衣晱埖娜恕?lt;/span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; font-size: 23px; line-height: normal; font-family: ".SF UI Display"; color: rgb(69, 69, 69);"><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">母親雖一半清醒一半糊涂，無論她是什么狀態(tài)了，她的心是子女的，是清晰的。</span></h3><h3>
</h3><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; color: rgb(69, 69, 69); min-height: 27.4px;"><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"> </span></font><span style="font-family: PingFangSC-Semibold; font-size: 23pt; font-weight: bold;">無論世界怎么變，他們對(duì)孩子的愛，永遠(yuǎn)不變。</span><font face=".SF UI Display"><span style="font-size: 23px;"><br></span></font><span style="font-family: ".SFUIDisplay-Semibold"; font-weight: bold; font-size: 23pt;"></span></h3> <h3>圖片是作者母親，其余段落圖片來自網(wǎng)絡(luò)。</h3>